I can relate to everything you say. It's terribly difficult when the man you married isn't the same person sitting across the dinner table from you now. He's still the same, yet so different. My husband is losing his hearing too and resisted getting tested and fitted with hearing aids for years and years. I finally made an appointment for him, but he refused to go, so I had to cancel. I was able to reschedule once he got to the hearing center, he did fine. His hearing aids still are insufficient, but he hears marginally better. I find myself shouting and repeating things too and I hate that. I sound angry when most of the time I'm not. But I understand your anger and frustration. We see our husbands (or wives as the case may be) at their worst, while friends and family often see them making a great effort to be "normal." And the more intelligent they are, the longer they can keep up that facade. It's great that you can laugh. You must find ways to get some relief for yourself. That's as important for him as it is for you. Hang in there. You're not alone.