First, accept my sincere condolences. I am really sorry that you had to lose so many friends in such short period of time : (.

I do not have anything wise to say but will try to make you smile, if at all possible in this thread. There is a saying in my "old country" that "yellows are yellowing, and red ones are traveling" , meaning that sick (yellow in face) people complain and are sickly but are trotting ahead for long time, while red ( with healthy color in face) suddenly die (travel to other side). very often. It is so hard to translate it lol, but I am sure that you will get a gist and yes, I agree, the whole life is just one big gamble.