Inflation over ten years has landed me right back to thinking about getting a small RV and truck and living the rest of my life in that, as I was doing before I met him - back then I didn't even have social security. I was disabled, and have been getting better over the years, but getting hired at my age and having been on the disabled status for 9 years...no one wants to see a blank on a resume, they want to know what you were doing...and a 9 year gap that states "I was on disability due to complex PTSD" gets rejected. Like it has for me the last 10 years.

Well, I am not going to wallow in self pity...I will move forward. We owned land (no house on it) and he gave me the land because he wanted to move back to his home state where we moved here from 4 years ago. This is my home state; he had agreed to move here if I stayed in his home state five more years, and I did; then we moved here. I thought we were building a house together - but now will have to find a way to build it on my own.

I will have to find some bank, perhaps the VA, who will give me a loan that will keep my housing under $1300 a month. That is all I can afford.