Amanda,

You can only live life one minute at a time. Some times what you feel is from escaping a near death experience as many who have put a post here have done. Just walk as much as you can and do somethings you love doing to relieve the depression. It takes time to heal, for me it was well over a year after my Quad bypass before I began to feel better.

I'll never forget when I was awakened during the first night and being asked to do things like write my name and indicate where I hurt. While I was awake for those few m minutes a second nurse stood at the foot of my bed and asked the first nurse what made my case so important and the first nurse told that other one he did not know why I was such a priority. I was laying there thinking this "Cuz, I was about to die you ID10T" but being intubated I could not shout at him to go about his own business. I was put back to sleep and my right hand was re-restrained so that tI did not attempt to remove the tubing from my mouth.

I went back to work after 3 months and wished I'd had far more time to recuperate. I just didn't have enough sick or vacation leave to stay home.

All of life is lived one minute at a time. One day you will suddenly notice the depression is gone. BUT...let your doctors know of your depression problems.