Yes, October of 1999. I remember a lot of it. When I go to the same ICU with patients my heart rate goes into the 90's. There is a lot of things in our daily lives that never go back to normal. Accepting that and moving on to your new place in life can be difficult after you get out of the ICU. Most of us are terrified of being that sick again and we will do anything to not wind up in the ICU ever again. It can be doubly frustrating for your spouse because you can't do things at the same speed you used to for at least a few months. It's like being a child again as you re-learn things and work on your memory. Spouses and family members get as frustrated as you do when you aren't up to speed.