I'm sorry for your loss. I lost my wife as well, just six weeks ago, on our 43rd anniversary. She unexpectedly passed in her sleep, a terrible shock. I will be grieving for some time. I think its OK to cry & let it out. I have the belief that her spirit could still be here, at least from time to time. I talk to her & play her favorite music. I stay busy with house & yard work & always play music, radio or TV to avoid silence. I'm 71 & she was the love of my life, so I have no plans of dating. I have 46 years of wonderful memories to help get me thru. If I would meet a new friend someday, that would be fine, but I'm not looking. I would be concerned about taking all of those drugs, especially at bedtime. Try to stay busy & know that your wife would want you to live your remaining years to the fullest. We will be with our loved ones again someday, I'm sure. Best wishes to you!