@spottedcat83 Hello and welcome to Mayo Connect. It sounds as if you have been through an incredible trauma and your frustration with your current situation is very understandable. You do not mention where you live, however, in Michigan we have Hope Network which is a Rehabilitation facility that specializes in neurocognitive rehab. This type of rehab would be very helpful to you. Perhaps you could use your computer and google the term, "neruocognitive rehab" in your locale and see what facilities might be available near you and then see if they can help you. If you are comfortable sharing more, let us know how you ended up in ICU. Was it the result of an accident or stroke? We look forward to getting to know you better. Teresa