So i did go to the psychiatrist who lives in tele viv . that would have been last monday. And i had a good experience. But i have again had difficulty in comminicating on line or on email or answering voice mail or anything to do with any sort of communucation. That has to do with making sure i am in a safe place during a communication. I am not in a safe communication zone with many out of state friends… And my son who is still alive…who is the brother of my son who died. I have a 3rd son who is my deceased son’s half brother. They have a different father. Both of their fathers have died. My deceased son’s father died of lung disease. But my youngest son, from a different marriage, …… His own father died by suicide as well. More later.