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Managing Lifelong Mental Health as a Senior
Mental Health | Last Active: Oct 23, 2023 | Replies (499)Comment receiving replies
Then there is the "religious" stuff that keeps cropping up. It crops up because when a person is mentally or physically sick...and suicidal....especially....ya' just can't keep religion, spirituality, belief systems, culture, etc. , out of it. It's who we are, or who we think we are, or who we even want to be, sometimes.
And it's all so complex. American Indians have gone "up on the mountain" to wait for death when they felt it was time. And who even told them it was "time" anyway? And on and on.... At the moment i am personally trying to recover from finding a huge box of photos of my 2nd husband...who killed himself when our son was only six years old. All the memories are flooding back and i feel like i, myself, want to run into the lake in front of my home and drown myself.
However i won't, not because i am so well adjusted after all these years....i see that i am definitely NOT. But because i have a first appt with my new psychiatrist .
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@ihatediabetes I totally agree with you. At one point prior to transplant they called me when they got results from the latest blood tests I had and said to get to the hospital immediately, not to drive to Boston but go to my local hospital. It turned out that my hemoglobin and hematocrit were dangerously low. They said to go local, not to drive to Boston. The doctor in the local ER said any lower and I could have had a cardiac arrest. After a very quick initial panic I felt calm and felt if this is my time then so be it. Obviously it was not. The doctor was uncomfortable with my situation so he called Boston and they told him to send me there in an ambulance. I ended up being there for 2 or 3 days and had a number of transfusions.
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@contentandwell @ihatediabetes, oy vay, doctas are gonna kill us all. I leave for my appt in a few minutes. Thanks for checking on me. I dont expect a magic bullet. You ladies take it easy. Judy
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Personally I have come to the conclusion that, "Live!" is the best choice. I used to feel like I didn't have a choice but I decided that's not true. It was a lie. I also believe it was demons that were talking and lying to me. Nobody talks about demons but I believe they exist. I learned to shut them out. So now I just want to die when God calls me. I think some sort of angel or spirit being is going to come for me. At church when someone is very sick the pastor says that the person is, "Going home." That's how we talk about death. It's going home. That's what I believe. I'm going home.