You've come to a good place for support and information. I understand your concern and you are so right. We all need support and understanding when going through something unfamiliar. The more you tell us about your situation the more we can understand how to support you. In the meantime hang in there. One thing that you might do is begin a list of questions for your doctor. Getting as much information as you can may help you feel a sense of strength. Please let us know what you find out.