It's wonderful to see so many people wanting to help you with suggestions.

I did look thru from your first post and what seems to stand out from your responses is that you often say, 'I need to try harder' (Jun 9) or 'how to push for' (Jun 10). That is, you must do MORE.

Now I know it's the most common advice we hear and like to give, but what does it really mean?
Did you notice we all learnt to roll our of our bed and started to crawl -- On OUR OWN.
And next thing we found ourselves straining to stand up holding on to a chair leg. One day we were running, climbing, sliding, jumping... all without anyone Ever telling us: You need to 'push harder.'
Weird?!
Yet one day we do seem to find ourselves we are not moving/straining as what might be helpful for our OWN health and Vitality.

As someone who is your age (81+), the last time I visited my doctor was over maybe ten years ago. And even before I saw her only occasionally... mostly because I never saw any reason to waste her time and MY time. I still use no medications, avoided colonoscopy when we are 'harassed' in our early 70s, no tests, no supplements, all with simple healthy inexpensive food, variety of adequate physical exertion, and using my time for purposeful activities, all resulting in sound sleep.

In other words, I ask: Is this about the best use of your time-on-earth that will satisfy you the next day/week/year?
This is what guides me, spurs me, to live optimally and authentically. I only control what's My-Life allows me. I don't need to compare myself with others because I am the result of My own past.

What is outside my control entirely is to have what you've said so well: Every person NEEDS a true friend. I spend my time a lot on finding a few.
I wish you have a life that You enjoy living most.