Hang in there....life can only get better! I agree with a previous comment to see another oncologist in your area - while they have the same tools in the tool kit they might chose a different approach or select a different med for you. To be honest, I would look for a second opinion from two ends of the spectrum; one from an oncologist who has been practicing a long time (these days you can google them and get info about length of time practicing, where they got their degree, specializations, etc) and another (three opinions!) who recently began practicing. I say this because the long time physician should have seen just about everything and helped manage a lot of conditions and the young person because they are fresh out of training and will be up on the most recent advances or thoughts in how to manage BC. Although physicians are required to complete continuing medical education that don't always embrace new thoughts the way the young folk do. So take a deep breath, step into the light (shut down those dark thoughts), and regroup; find the support you need by seeking second opinions. I will you well...