Hi, yes the conversations have been triggering to me. I thought I was witnessing suicide attempt. So I was anxious. I'm not professional with the resources of organization like Mayo Clinic. They have each other as colleagues. I am only lay person and mayo endocrinology patient. So I tried to think of ways to deal with anxiety over thinking someone hurt herself and we didn't know what happened to her. I know all about trauma. I was person that posted on dissociative disorders. Anyone that has experience with severe and prolonged trauma in childhood should think about whether they have dissociative disorder. Treatment includes learning to know what you could not know when you were little. You did that to function.

I was remembering when I was little that I didn't know if my mom would be alive when I got off school bus. So every day I got off school bus and checked on my mom. I was checking to see if she was okay. I went room to room. So I believe this experience on mayo connect triggered me into the same fear I had experienced day after day when I was little. Of course, you can't tell anyone even if you're only 9 or 10 years old.

I have found that quiet time with God helps me recover. I read my Bible every day without fail. I hike and snowshoe in woods. I spend time listening to running water or birds. It's really helpful and healing. I spend a lot of time in woods just listening in quiet.

I go to church but I know that people have limits. I listen to music and pastor. I give my offering. I eat a cookie and drink coffee. It's not perfect but it's enough. I try to talk to God because I believe only God can give us what we need. People are finite. Blessings.

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