Hi,
It is awful what you have been through and are going through! I'm so sorry for you. I know nothing about your situation but I do know from personal experience that God will help you. Just pray and ask for his help with what you are experiencing. You don't have to go to church to find God. Although that's a nice thing to do. Just talk to God like he's your best friend and he is. If you have been praying and haven't gotten any answers yet, just keep praying and God will eventually answer your prayers! I had migraine headaches for two years that were extremely painful. It took two years of my mom and I praying continually but finally God answered our prayers and my headaches went totally away. That was 45 years ago and I haven't had a headache of any kind since.

I will pray for you also. I wish you the best.
PML