I am 77 yo female and I identify and empathize with your message. I am dealing with many health issues, but along side those issues have dealt with neurologic anxiety and depression disorder, with traumatic life issues affecting it for so many years. I, too, have had trauma since childhood, but I have always fought to feel "normal" and live a happy life. Lately, I have been dealing with a lot of anger, which perplexes me and seems to change my reactions to people and situations. I am a kind person and I don't like this dark, angry person I can easily become. I have sought counseling most of my life, but have come to the conclusion that not all mental health issues can be "solved". I think too often, the focus is on the diagnosis and not the life issue that has caused your mental health issue. My seeking counseling is to help me deal with the life issues that I cannot necessarily prevent or change and how to deal with them. I have a good counselor right now, but I have had 3 episodes with Covid since the end of Jan, leaving me sick most all of the time. Add to that, computer problems that prevent me from having virtual counseling visits, so I am "on hold" right now! LOL! Would love someon to communicate who has fought life issues and the ability to retain "saneness" throughout. Thank you for your time.