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"Looking forward." Has PN taken that away from me, too?
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Hello Ray! I meant to reply yesterday, but I had a meeting at church to get to. And run my foster kittens to the vet for a visit (I only accept two kittens at a time now, and no sickly ones). And go to the local Farmer’s Market for a few things. Get a few prescriptions (always) and groceries.
Now, at the meeting I pulled my socks out of my purse, and got an extra chair to prop my legs up. Took 1/2 Percocet - I always have those and ALWAYS have water with me (dry mouth). I had planned to ride my e-bike to the Market and grocery store (1 mile away) but that started seeming too complicated. The nagging pain in my right hip decided to flare up badly when I got up from my nap, and it seriously impacted the next few hours - dealing with kittens, anything requiring bending over, putting things away. But I had to keep going, literally crying out in pain, holding on to furniture. More Percocet.
Today I have a medical massage at my chiropractor’s office, and will see him. Insurance pays for the massage! So I’ll grit my teeth and do the painful household chores this morning, because relief is on the way. Of course in 24 hours I’ll be back to suffering ( plus the pain from the massage).
I live alone with no partner. My yard looks like a Botanical Garden. Being outside in the sunshine and dirt and flowers brings me so much joy. No one watching can tell how much I’m hurting, or how many adaptations I make. I know my neighbors wonder why I qualify for disability. They don’t see how much I am lying down inside (more Percocet please).
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"I know my neighbors wonder why I qualify for disability."
Ah, the ol' invisible pains! They're a plague to most of us. Sometimes when I'm with some chippy chirpy friend who's proposing we climb one of the Rockies 14'ers as we would do only a few years ago (or maybe that was a few decades ago?), I find myself wanting to grap my chippy chirpy friend by the shirt collar and yell, "Can't you see why I can't climb any more mountains? Come on, buddy-boy, do you think I'm carrying this cane just for the laughs?" Of course, I quickly calm down. That's a problem all of us with "stealth" disease have to deal with. To others we look whole and unchanged, while to ourselves we know that we're something less than whole –– maybe only seven-eighths or four-fifths –– and unchanged? Oh, lordy, we are far from UN-changed! If you you could see …
Cheers!
Ray (@ray666)
Gardens are delightful and I am glad that your garden brings you pleasure. I kept my yard very simple this year--just enough color amid the green to bring some joy here. I also have some squirrels and birds that visit and it is a comfort to watch them. You have kittens and my dog keeps me up and moving which is important with neuropathy. Like you, I get some relief from physical therapy, but, then it is back to square one the next day. By the way, if you tell people about your hurt or anxiety--some don't want to hear it. One guy from my church called me a "jumping chihuahua." Very hurtful indeed.
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You amaze me at how much you get accomplished and don’t give up! I like how you’re always seeing a carrot at the end of the stick, and solutions to achieve your next goal. Your garden sounds lovely.