I can certainly understand how you feel. If your depression is "situational" (as opposed to actually being a chemical imbalance), the only thing that I've found is to stay active and engaged with others. After losing a grandson, son-in-law, and our older daughter, all within 7 months last year, there are days I literally have to force myself to leave the house. I also believe strongly in getting counseling when needed, something I'm also doing this year. I guess the bottom line is that it's literally "one day at a time." I hope you find what works for you.