Hi Dorma,
I'm sorry you are having problems with depression and the medications. One thing that can help is eating healthy and getting a good night's sleep. Also prayer helps immensely! My husband died last July. I was depressed at being left alone. I'm 79 and have no family left. They are all up in Heaven except my son whom I haven't seen or heard from in 30 years. I made myself eat regular healthy meals and go to bed at a reasonable hour so I got 8 hours of sleep. Exercise also helps. I cleaned the house thoroughly. Plus I prayed to God and asked for his help in getting through this difficult time. God answered my prayers and I got through that difficult time. Just talk to God like he's your best friend and he is! He will be there for you.
I wish you the best and will say a prayer for you.
PML