Can you say more about why this triggers you to feel guilty instead of something else.... perhaps pride in yourself.

Productivity is great, but for me it isn't the final measure of a person's worth. I know it can be hard--but try not to judge yourself. What are you able to do? I'm guessing there might be ways to continue being of service, if differently.

Hello. The only thing I can suggest is to change your focus to something you can do.
Possibly writing a book or diary about what you did before. Reflect on the positive. Try to find an interesting way to spend your time. Talking with friend's shared experiences and a new experience might come along to bless you and satisfy you.
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Just as in a book, out lives are built of chapters. My Mom taught me that the stages of life are chapters, to be lived fully, then gracefully closed so one can appreciate the next.
For example, as travel became difficult, we enjoyed smaller adventures much closer to home. Telephone conversations replaced vists with more distant friends and family. Card games and jigsaw puzzles replaced concerts.
The hardest thing was to move from being the helper to the one being helped. After we talked about this being yet another chapter, she became a very gracious and thankful receiver, with a great sense of humor about her situation.
We experienced being receivers this week as we needed wait patiently for help with a task we would have been able to do ourselves easily a few months ago. I am beginning to think about my "next chapters" and how to live them fully and gracefully.

I have the same problem...I will pray for you!! Hugs!!