I totally understand. My wife and kids have been great too, but the feeling of being alone is very real and, on some level, true. If you are on Facebook, I encourage you to find the Colontown communities. There is one general one for colorectal cancer, but then there are several other more specific groups, including one for liver metastases that was incredibly helpful for me. The support of others is wonderful and they also have Doc Talks where leading doctors share explanations and latest approaches for various conditions. That's where I first learned about the HAIP pump.

On another note, I see that our user names have some similarity! I have been NED for over a year now and have recovered fully from the multiple surgeries, chemo and radiation. I am so glad to be able to pick up each of my five grandkids, play on the floor and be the goofy grandpa I am meant to be again after a bit of a rough time. Hang in there. The stats for recovery from liver metastases have improved dramatically in the last few years. I wish you peace of mind and a clear path to follow soon after you meet with your doctors this week. Be sure to see a liver surgeon next as soon as possible. The medical oncologists are great, but they don't specialize in the surgery part, which is the most important part for treating the liver.