@nikki6 I understand the fear that comes with a diagnosis of cancer. While my journey through cancer is different than yours - mine was a diagnosis of endometrial cancer in 2019 - I do remember the emotional shock I felt when my doctor called me. When I went to see my doctor the day I received the diagnosis I made a wrong turn in my car on the way home along a very familiar route. When I realized what I'd done it took me some time to "wake up" and figure out how to get back on the correct route.

You've received excellent advice from @colleenyoung and @kmlnj. You will need emotional and perhaps physical support to get yourself through this process. I am a mental health professional and worked for many years with domestic violence survivors. The staff at women's shelters are strong advocates and so I hope you will call there. Whether or not you choose to live at a women's shelter or with family or friends the women's shelter advocate and counselors can support you. Please don't go the route of believing you can do this on your own. My experience, the experiences of others here at Mayo Clinic Connect and the research tells us that patients with cancer do better overall when they have emotional and physical support.

I wish you a good life forward. You came here to Mayo Clinic Connect. That's a first step.

Will you ask to speak with the oncology social worker as @colleenyoung recommended? And call the Women's Shelter and/or the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233?