That's fully understandable. There's another side you can break through to where you both *do* think and talk about it, let yourselves experience the emotional pain (which might not be as bad as what you fear), and then find peace and learn to live with the new situation, but that's a tough transition, and you can't force it right away.

Best of luck in a difficult situation.

I often use the ostrich stress relief method myself. I’m good at closing a door in my brain and just not thinking about it. My friends are jealous that I can just stick my head in the ground and pretend all is well. Praying for your husband and you! Take care of you!!