Good Morning Elyser! It’s good to “hear” from you again! My opinion; You’re fine! I say that because you have been through an emotional as well as physical roller coaster since your diagnosis to now. It, honestly, will probably continue for a while. Yes, the meds contribute to that. Those are some serious meds you are taking. But, also, your body and mind need the release crying gives. It’s one of the ways we release tension, sadness, fear, etc. You’ve had to be so brave going through this. You’ve had to be strong and a fighter! Now you’re probably thinking a lot of what you need to do next to get better and back to the life you want to live. but scared still. Normal!! Happy, sad, scared all at the same time. Appreciative of being alive but already worrying about the future. It’s ALL normal. Crying is your release. I wouldn’t worry about it. Just accept it when it happens and know that you will feel better, in some way, afterward. Maybe even let yourself smile or laugh about it afterward. Your mind and body need to relax for a bit now. As far as the meds, maybe ask your Doctor if there is something else you can take for any pain now. I wanted off those kinds of meds as soon as I got home because I knew they are addictive and I just didn’t want them. They gave me Lyrica, Gabapentin, Hydro Morphone, Robaxin, 800mg Ibuprofen and 500mg Tylenol. After 2 weeks, because you have to slowly get off the heavy ones, I was only taking the Ibuprofen and Tylenol and once in a while the Robaxin.(muscle relaxer). I feel I am a more emotional person now than I used to be, but thats fine, because I also appreciate EVERYTHING, a lot more than I used to. God is Good! We are still here! Hugs and Love to you!❤️🙏