I am so sorry you are struggling. I am now dealing with my depression and anxiety not responding to Paxil ( generic brand) which I have been on for years along with Clonazapam. I’m 78 and the amount of Paxil I'm on is too much for me at my age. I’m 78. I tried cutting my Peroxatine ( Paxil) from 40 mg to 30 mg. For several weeks I felt good but now am going through horrible withdrawal. My current Psychiatrist down plays what I’m telling him. I’ve decided after many years to switch Psychiatrists. My former Dr does not seem to hear me. I believe there are other meds out there like Prozac and Lexapro. Depression is horrible with anxiety. My daily life and activities are almost at a standstill still. This is not how I want to live. I’m hoping a new Dr will help. I’m a young 78 yr female. Take care . We must be our best advocates.

yeja
I just read your post and when you wrote that your brain just turns on you it struck me so deeply. That's how I feel sometimes. Life passes day by day and Im fine and boom, seemingly out of nowhere I feel a deep despair and loneliness and nothing has changed, except my brain. Ive been in and out of therapy for many years, currently out, and on antidepression meds for years and mostly Im ok. But then a switch flips and im sooo sad, so alone. So far, eventually it passes but its horrible when its happening . I do understand what you're saying and for what its worth, you're not alone
Kate