@susanjane77 Thank you for your very kind words. The heavy rock still exists since it has been only a short period of time. I look forward to the day it begins to feel lighter. I do belong to a GriefShare support group, and I also belong to an in-person support group. They meet one day a week for those who lost a spouse or partner. I joined the in-person group 5 weeks after she passed away knowing I'd need to talk with folks who understand the depth of losing a spouse. I was in shock for about 2 weeks. The morning in which she passed away, we were to leave NJ and go to Florida for a 10-day cruise. My family and I were blessed in that she passed at home with no pain, not sick, she had a cardiac arrest in her sleep. You helped me in more than a small way and I'll keep in mind your comments. I am sure you find being a facilitator rewarding and helpful in your own grief, Thanks again. Ed