I know the chemo is looming ahead for you, however they really worked with me at my doctor's office and they were so helpful when I was ready to give it up. I know you can do this. It will be in your rear view mirror in no time. All the things I was anxious about seem smaller now. That's hard to think right now, but hang in there girl. There are two things I can advise. Lean on God like you've never leaned on him before. And take one day at a time. The "what ifs" can only hurt you. Recognize when you are starting to circle the drain and catch it before it sucks you in. Tell yourself to get busy doing something else and to stop thinking about it for the moment. Then act. I know, easy to say, hard to do. I still have to do it every day.