Ed, I am terribly sorry that you lost your wife. My sincere condolences. You are so right by saying that grief never ends. I am still married to my husband of 42 years and have adult children. My mother died 38 years ago at a very young age. She had cancer. My father died in his sleep 24 years ago. I still grieve. But, I did learn something about grief when I became a facilitator for a grief support group. And I will never forget it and I hope it helps you. “Grief feels like a heavy rock in your pocket during the first year. As the years pass by, this heavy rock will still be in your pocket but each passing year, the weight of it will become lighter and hopefully, it will eventually feel like a pebble in your pocket but always there”. Volunteering sounds like a wonderful thing to do. It will get you out of the house. I hope I have helped in some small way. Attend a support group if your grief keeps you from being active. Good luck and wish you the best!