Hi;
I too have been diagnosed with cptsd, and I can relate to a lot of your physical and mental sensations.
I remember being about 16 and being so scared of some nameless, faceless terror that my scalp began to tingle and I wished for unconsciousness, just so the suffering would stop.
I had severe anxiety in school, manifesting as fear of open spaces and sitting in class. Not to mention depression. I also felt dizzy and faint. Also had feelings of unreality(dissociative disorder).
I came home from school every day crying at one point, telling my parents how I was feeling. Did they do anything? No!
How I continued to function I have no idea.
Things finally came to a head when I had a nervous breakdown in college and had to drop out. They finally had to get me some help.
Even if someone does have physical problems, they can also have cptsd.
I’m 69 now, still have it, but have had a pretty functional life. The major thing that helped me was Xanax. Also, physical exercise is amazing; (it shifts your brain chemicals)
I was never too successful with therapy, but have decided to give it another try.
Please know that you are not alone. This is real, and others have it.
You can always call or text 988 anywhere in the US if you feel suicidal or in crisis, and they will talk to you and try to refer you.
You’ve survived some pretty serious things; you’re already an overcomer; please get some help. You do not deserve to feel this way.
Please keep us informed; we’re here for you.