How awful to have had a concussion and then problems from that! That must be very hard to deal with. That's nice that your grandmother had 12 children. It's too bad that one of them did get Alzheimer's. People used to have larger families. My husband who recently died of lung cancer came from a family of 9. I understand how you don't want to end up without a good life and how you want to leave what you can for your young daughter. That's very good of you. You sound like you are a very good person. I would suggest that you just take all this to God and ask him to handle it for you. He's very good at that. I've had so many prayers answered when I didn't know where to turn. My husband was so ill with cancer and I prayed so hard for him and he got better even though he still had cancer and lived 14 years. Those were wonderful years and I'm glad we had them. He did die but we all do. My husband was 83 and I miss him a lot. However, I know we'll be together again in Heaven. It keeps me going. That and my prayers.
I'll say a prayer for you. I wish you the best.
PML