@jude5: You are being a great care giver for your husband. I offer you a hug for your decision to honor your husbands wishes when he has had enough of dialysis. I think you have handled his healthcare perfectly. It seems like you would benefit from weekly time to yourself… perhaps a neighbor or family member could provide you a couple hours that you can look forward to “your time away”. All the responsibility you shoulder 24/7 is more than anyone should suffer. Be good to you!