You are doing good!! 88 days is great. I found that after I stopped drinking I had other things I needed to address. When I saturated my brain and body for so long, the person I really was started to appear. As you already know, I did A.A. I also see a therapist and a shrink. Being an alcoholic was what I had always been. Now, I am still an alcoholic, I just stopped drinking and without the alcohol, I realized I have trauma in my background as well. Depression, anxiety, etc. I do the best I can one day at a time. A.A. and the people that understand helps as I know I am not alone. Hang in there! I know you are still grieving your son. Grief has no time limit. Just today, that is all you have! I know you can do it. Seek the help you need. You do not have to do this alone. I promise.