I am somewhat relieved, but also concerned that you had to experience these side effects. I too had the same dark depression and could think of nothing else except wanting to die. Even prayed to my husband, who has been deceased for 5 years now, to please come get me. Then started mulling over the ways.........that's when I knew I was in trouble...when the thinking triggered the planning or how could I. Being a nurse with a strong psych background I knew the signs. Haven't even told my Pulmo yet. I do know that the night after I stopped the thoughts did too and I had the best nites sleep that I have had in 3 month! Keep well @tumanic and @dollover!