Hi, @kelli1989 - sorry to hear your life got really bad after learning you had epilepsy at 13. The syndrome that hospitalized you for 3 months sounds terrible.

I do not have epilepsy, but if I was unable/told not to drive, I think I'd feel like my freedom had been taken away. Like @adoptivemother said, it’s important to know you are not alone. I hope you read her helpful post.

I’m tagging @santosha @jakedduck1 @tonyde @dannoyes @methel @motobee who have also dealt with epilepsy to provide some support.

You titled the discussion you started here as "Ready for the end." I'm not sure if you meant the end of troubles with epilepsy or the end of life. This is a safe place to talk as you feel the need. I also want you to know about the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline https://988lifeline.org that you can call or text at 988 any time for immediate help. Please call them if you are feeling threatened by your feelings of self-harm.

kelli1989, what are activities that you enjoy doing? What helps you when you start feeling sorry for yourself?