I am a believer in Jesus, and you stated you weren’t
,so I won’t push my beliefs on you, but I have had a POLST and a DNR since I watched several loved ones suffer with the decision of life support and when to let someone go. I am also not suicidal, I love every minute of my life, but I do not ever want to put my Husband or sons in a position of when is the time to turn off life support, I choose to die whenever the good Lord calls me home. I have had legal document signed by my Phycician , for many years and have had to under spinal surgery in 2020. That meant general anesthesia.
I just turned 70 and hope to have many years left here on earth. Barring any diseases or accidents, I seem to have longevity genes. Mom and Dad passed in 2023 at the ages of 90-1/2 and 92. They died within 2 months of each other, and were not sick. Mom is one of 8 kids and only her youngest brother died before 80 due to agent orange poising in Vietnam Nam. Everyone else lived late 80’s or mid 90’s. None had memory issues. I don’t have a support group to recommend to you, but I do understand how you feel about aging . If I was unable to care for myself or unable to make my own decisions, I wouldn’t want anyone else to have to make those decisions for me. Thus my DNR and Polst. My Husband children know my wishes and have promised to honor them. We will all eventually die. But I made my own wishes known in a legal document. I don’t consider this decision horrific, and I am of sound mind.