@pamela78
I love your honesty and being real! I hear you and can empathize! We are all here for you to support you. Vent to your hearts content. You really need to. You are not alone.

I am in my 50s and have many health issues and can relate with being a burnt out caregiver. My mother in law had Alzheimer’s/high anxiety/OCD and I had to care for her while at the same time caring for my husband with ADHD/Autism/early onset Alzheimer’s/high anxiety/OCD (like his mom) and an infant/child at the time while working a demanding 60+ hour per week job. I am now divorced and a single parent of my teen son and disabled. I needed to save what little mental health I had left to care for my son (who has ADHD and learning differences) and my declining health. It became too much to bear. I became scared because I had no extended family to help and felt like I wanted to run away from life and jump off the nearest bridge. I knew my son needed me so that was something I would not/could not do so divorce was my only option to save my sanity. I still see my son’s father daily and we are fairly amicable but I now have better boundaries. Before divorce, I felt like I lost my oxygen mask and could not put mine on anymore to help anyone else but I needed to find it again to help my young son.

I am concerned about my son’s future and having to deal with his father’s mental decline. He has no family or friends and my son is too young to deal with his father’s decline. I hang on daily to God’s strength, grace and mercy and hope for the future. I trust him to get me through these storms and try to find simple joys daily and rest in His peace.