Hi Happykc,
I agree with you. I'm 78 and look forward to dying and going to Heaven to be with all my loved ones especially my husband who died last July. Besides my husband dying, so did my good friend and even the neighbor's cat who liked me and all about the same time. A few months apart. Many times I asked God, "Why did I get left behind?"

But here I am. You are right that whenever God wants you to die, you will. I have gotten used to being alone and even somewhat enjoy my life. The wonderful people on the Mayo Connect helped to make that possible. They were so supportive. Plus I have a lot to do since many things got put aside when I was taking care of my husband with lung cancer. Being busy helps with the loneliness. I miss my husband terribly but knowing we'll be together eventually helps a lot. Prayer helps also. I pray a lot and get a lot of prayers answered.

That's too bad that your family can't understand your attitude about dying. Who wouldn't want to get out of this world with all the horrible things happening in it these days? It's certainly not like it used to be. However, you still can find nice places and people who are decent and good. You just have to look harder.

I'll say a prayer that you find what you are looking for.
PML