Wow, your frustration is well expressed and has somehow helped me. I've been wrestling with the loss of my person, my Wife, to suicide 5 months ago. We always referred to our Love as a gift and a constant to be honored and appreciated. We declared each other to be our Partner, our Rock, our Confidant and our Lover. I now realize what we thought was the least important was the most important of the 4. I'm blessed to have had this amazing human in my space for so long and cursed to have lost her to not having a consistent erection. Our Family will continue to remember her by the way she Lived her Life and not by the physical failing that helped to end it. Blessings to all those still in the struggle and their Family/Friends.........Condolences on your loss.