I laughed because I relate so much to what you said.
About being scared to take prescribed meds.

There was a time I would only buy pills that were individually wrapped – OTC pills -
because I was scared of them being tampered with. Even though deep down inside, I knew the likeliness was basically zero,
remembering that horrible Tylenol story from childhood..

I’m happy that I’m not as severe as I used to be, but it still creeps in there.

It didn’t help that when I was diagnosed with my high blood pressure they kept telling me that it was “only anxiety“

I found out that my blood pressure that day was 190/113
I was in a hypertensive crisis that they medicated on the spot in the doctors office

Ever since that whole ordeal, I’ve been very mistrustful and even scared to talk about having anxiety because I don’t want a legitimate health problem to be chalked up to “anxiety” for months I was having high blood pressure migraines at night that they were medicating with tramadol, and to think of how bad it could’ve gone

Good times indeed