MTB - Very good words ! . You're a great writer yourself - good for you . You hit on one thing , how lonely Prostate Cancer is . So true, after you get the news you have the "good one" , its hard to explain to people how your life changes . How insulated your world is now . I looked after my father 25 years ago when he was dying WITH prostate Cancer . I was his Care Giver . It left me with PTSD the Dr says . 6 months of back and forth to the hospital , dad loosing weight , dad not wanting to go to hospital for pain medication and so on . He was an engineer . smart man , but did not trust doctors . He had a Overseas contract that required him to take a physical . Prior to this he had not seen a Dr in over 10 years ! at 60 , he was told he had prostate Cancer ( quite a high PSA if I remember right ) . They said we 'think' we caught it early , which didnt add up to me give no Dr visit for 10 years and a hyper PSA level around 20-25 ( I think) . He died on a rainy west coast winter night in Vancouver , at the hospital , at 67 . I held his hand all through it . I covered his face with the bed sheets after the "death rattle" for what seemed like hours . He really wanted to live . I was not close to my father , but I owed him the ultimate respect at every point . Hence when I got PC , I got anxiety right away ( never had that before, as im quite a cool collected guy I think , also a commercial pilot - so I trained this way in life ) , and also I felt so isolated . Anyway ...enough about me . God Bless you and your family . James on Vancouver Island .