It's hard to find the actual questions on here anymore, it seems to be all pseudo entertainment blog posts lately.

Anyway, after my first cancer I had what I call a "dark year", because I was told that if it came back then it was likely to be terminal so I let that creep in on me for a long time and was in a bad place waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Ten years later and still no recurrence, but then I got PC.

This time around, I didn't have the same dark space as I had before, perhaps because I'd already been there and recognized that and actively stopped it, or maybe I just realize the futility of wasting precious life on another year of worry. The funny thing is that I probably have more to worry about now than before since this often jumps up and bites you repeatedly through your life, but I also know there are a lot of different treatments to try to keep it at bay.

Try to take deep breath's and don't dwell on the bad, focus on the fact that you fixed something that was bound to take you out if you did nothing and it's gone and maybe forever. Truly one day at a time!