Bless you and I wish you all the best of outcomes! These situations are so devastating and I was very lucky that mine shocked me into a sort of numbness in which I felt apart from myself. With each new blow I still had faith in the medical profession that things would somehow turn out all right. I was also very lucky that my husband was there taking care of me and that (&*^$&^*)_ bag until I decided to take on the responsibility myself. Again, the very best of luck!