@bobcinem Welcome to Connect. If you have had spine surgery, you probably won't feel like traveling. Perhaps that could be an incentive for after your recovery. Would you be able to defer that trip with your group?

I know you have a lot to think about. I am a spine surgery patient with a cervical fusion. I stayed in a neck brace for 3 months until it fused because I didn't want to have hardware screwed to my spine. I had to rehab after the 3 months because my neck was weak from the brace. I did feel pretty good at 6 months. I have also broken my ankle, and I can tell you that the surgeries and recovery from that was far worse than spine surgery and a lot more painful. Having to be confined in a cast with a swelling ankle is torture, and all I could do was elevate my foot and use some ice, and pain meds of course. That went on for awhile, and then I had to gradually walk on my weak ankle which hurt and took a long time to get strength and muscles back.

Cervical spine surgery is easier than lumbar spine surgery. With lumbar, you are bearing most of your body weight on the operated area which makes that a tougher recovery.

I also had to overcome a lot of fear before my spine surgery, and I started this discussion about facing fear of surgery. It took me months to get past my fear step by step and I had been working on that for a couple years by the time I had surgery. My case was misunderstood by 5 surgeons and I was nervous seeing all of them, but also confronting my fear by facing them in a consultation, and afterward telling myself, I had done well handling the situation.

How can I defeat my anxiety about medical tests and surgery?
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/how-can-i-defeat-my-anxiety-about-medical-tests-and-surgery/
Have you discussed your fear with your surgeon or primary care physician? Perhaps a counselor?