“ I write because the alternative is worse. Not for healing, not for insight—just to keep the madness on a leash.”

Not sure how much time has transpired since you started ADT…and I’m sorry to be so “on point”….but IMHO, in your case… it’s time to get the hell off it…that is not a medical opinion it’s a sanity suggestion from just another grunt diagnosed with PCa.

I never liked the phrase “prostate cancer warrior”…what a bunch of BS!

Those “in the know” and those who have been convinced by those “in know” folks tell us the way to “combat the enemy” is to slash, burn and chemically castrate ourselves in hopes that our rogue “walnut sized gland” doesn’t take us out prematurely….ridding ourselves of body parts they now deem as “the enemy”….no matter what the consequence to the most important body part….our minds….

I have no idea….but have you felt (and written) this way prior to starting ADT….just my two cent thought….which you are absolutely welcome to dismiss as ridiculous…if I have totally missed the mark…

All the best!