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Hello! How am I now? And when did I write the above post? This is Koke and I wrote that post on 1/13/24. And all is true and continues to be true. I guess thoughts about prayer and believing is defined by each person. I know how deep I rely on prayer and my trust is in my higher power allows me to handle my cancer in a way that I didn't know was possible. But we all have our own way and my way (which is such a gift) is praying and strongly believing that my God will help me through. I don't think he can save any of us but he can help guide and give us strength and courage. Isn't that all we have? Oh yes, those drugs but other than that?
In Dec/24 my cancer returned back to lymph nodes near my lungs. I have been VERY sick with one 5 day (near death) stay in the hospital with sepsis and the other fighting a battle of pancreatitis (going on month 2) caused by my immunotherapy drug. I really thought I was going to beat this cancer and now I don't think any of us can....but we can buy time.....time to find another drug ..... another treatment .... another way to prolong my life so I can see my (adult) kids again and my 3 grandchildren. That is my goal.
Prayers for all of us. This disease is just shitty....but I believe laughing, crying, being calm and stress free and enjoying moments in every day beats the cancer down. That I believe is true and gives me a basis to start each day. Prayers for all of us to stay healthy, spread smiles, to enjoy daily life and to laugh. Koke
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Thank you for your inspiring words, well written. I hope you recover from those harsh days in the hospital and can feel better. Bless you.
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Thank you for this update, @koke . I was also near death many years ago, when my daughter was about 9 months old. I prayed to God, begged Him to let me live a few years more. I wanted my daughter to see me and know me for a longer period of time than I saw and knew my own father who passed away when I was 4 years old.
That prayer was answered for more than I hoped for. My daughter has now a 9 y.o. son and 7-1/2 y.o. daughter. A doctor friend told me that he knew of only three people who had the same sickness as I had - 1 died, the other became a vegetable, and I lived able to walk.
Others here in our "Prostate Cancer Brotherhood," may or may not believe in the power of prayers; I hope many do. You and I are the same -- we want to see our grandchildren grow. Both our prayers were answered before, and can be answered again. But regardless of how long or how short we live this side of eternity, there is something we HOPE for that will never fail. On the other side of the "river," there will be no more pain or tears, for these things have passed away.
Best wishes to you and your family. Let's smile and share a laugh with this one (see attached).