Paul, although we “think” we are in control most of the time, it’s basically an illusion.
Randomness and “sh** happens” becomes more obvious as we age; well, at least to me.
Phil

You ve figured it out. If it’s illogical- it happens- and is never predictable. - GODS way

It is tempting to think of what we don't quite understand as being absurd. What if we take a different approach and start with the premise that life is a mystery! And during our lifetime, on this plane of existence (we cannot prove either the existence or non-existent of other planes of existence that may follow this one - except for near death experiences) we get to figure out the mystery.
As a biologist, I saw many clues that life has meaning. For example, every living thing tries to sustain itself, to hold onto life. Take for example dandelions on your lawn. You try everything to get rid of them by pulling them out, but they keep coming back! The same holds true for every living thing. So, what is this pervasive life force? What are its origins? I'm sure there will be several interesting answers. 🙂
Fred