Your story sounds alot like ours. My husband just turned 50, we had just purchased our dream home and all that fun life stuff. Life was good. My husband's cancer was caught on accident, thankfully! He was having heart issues and it was caught on a scan. Life turns around pretty quick. My husband went through chemo and radiation and got covid in the middle of it. He was able to have his surgery, thisbwas all during covid. I was not allowed to be there. It was absolutely horrible. He had 2/3rd of his esophagus removed and a gastric pull up. He was in the hospital for 12 days. It took some time for him to recover. He had issues with scar tissue but that was resolved with a number of endoscopies to stretch the tissue. He has lost about 100 lbs. He was in and out of the hospital about every other week for 9+ months. We finally figured out he was aspirating on his stomach acid. He has to pretty much sleeps upright so this dosen't happen. It's been a rough ride for a bit BUT he has been cancer free for 4yrs and 1mnth. Life has finally started to.turn back around. You will get through it. You will find your new normal. Just have faith, patience and remember to take care of yourself as well. I'm sure your outcome will be completely different and everything will go smoothly and just as planned. Good luck with everything!