Yes, I know I am fortunate. At 16, he is less interested in hanging out with an 80 year old, but he does like to go out for lunch or dinner, so it gives me an occasional chance to have company to go out with. I understand about missing your husband. Mine has been gone for almost 14 years and there is not a day that goes by that I don't miss him. We were both introverts and we needed each other. I absolutely know that I've lasted this long because of his needs. In Switzerland, from what I read, you have three visits with a mental health person and each time you can talk about your decision. If and when you are ready, you are given a heavy sedative and have a quiet goodbye. Family is welcome to be with you. You don't have to have an illness, but they will do some talk therapy to be sure you are sure you want to end it.