@kathi090518, in addition to the helpful information and encouragement from @njed regarding support groups and counseling, I encourage you to look into support groups hosted by local hospices. Most hospices offer bereavement support programs, including grief counseling, to help individuals and families cope with loss, often through one-on-one support, group sessions, and resources. You do not have to have been a patient or client of the hospice to get help in bereavement.