@ifoundme First, welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. I am glad you have found this forum to be able to express yourself.

There is nothing wrong with you. You are a strong lady, you have been able to move on. You are in a safe place, you have a job and place to live. It will take time to get more clothes for your back. That will come. But it is a daily challenge, physically/emotionally/mentally, right? You might not know what to expect on any given day. Before, when you were in the other situation, you pretty much understood how things would go, even if they were not to your liking or to your benefit. So, now it might feel uncomfortable, because it is all still new.

This I speak from my own experience. Give yourself the grace of "congratulations! I am doing this on my own!" Be gentle on yourself. Trudge each day, and it will get easier. This I know. And, we are all here for you.
Ginger