"Eat" is a verb that hasn't really applied to me for several months. With my stomach blocked by the tumor, I can only receive nutrition from a J-tube. In order to maintain weight I am hooked to a nutrition pump for 17 hrs/day. Previously I was on a clear liquid diet of broths, gelatin, etc., with protein supplements, but that led to aspiration pneumonia and a 5-day hospital stay, I start chemo/radiation therapy today with a fervent hope that perhaps the tumor can be shrunk enough to permit oral nutrition, although I suspect my feeding tube, etc. will remain for several months further along with social isolation.